Jason Mraz "I'm Yours" video

Bits and tidbits and morsels

I love that word - morsels. Mmmmm - mmmorsels. Aaaah.

I also love being a dork - and the fact that Kiki says there is no such thing as "too dorky" - I love my new job. I spent the afternoon organizing and color-coding data and running f-tests and t-tests and calculating Cohen's d. yeah, yeah - whoop-de-frickin'-do - but it actually makes me feel quite satisfied. All about the simple pleasures, people.

I love where I am in life and all the opportunities that I have - how many people get to ride horses in the morning and then head off to a sweet job and school all afternoon/evening? And free gym priveledges?

I love my family, of course. And my friends. Where would I even be without their love and support?

Speaking of friends, I am loving the book my friend Di lent me - If the Buddha Dated. "make this commitment to [yourself]: More than anything else, I want myself. I want to live with integrity and truth. I'm not going to hide the jewel of who I am, nor will I mask my imperfections. No bargains, no avoiding reality, no conning myself, no lies. The more we commit to knowing and accepting ourselves, the more we are able to surrender to loving another person because we have nothing to hide and nothing to feel ashamed of. ... If we live by truth we may have pain, but we will always rest securely within ourselves."

Finally (for now), I also love the Jason Mraz "I'm Yours" song - I posted the music video above. A few choice lyrics:

Well-a you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
I look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
...
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

One bill, two bills, three bills, BROKE

So I gripe about doctors and medical bills and health insurance a lot, I know. But seriously - just because one health-care professional I was seeing decided to transfer to spending full-time at her private practice, and the counseling center hasn't found anyone to fill in for her, yet, I had to go to the health center downstairs to get my prescriptions renewed. However, they switched up a bunch of stuff down there, so it was like coming in as a new patient all over again. So instead of just getting my prescription script, I had to go through all the paperwork and the intake, and basically have a mental-health interview with the new person, and then fork over a considerably hefty co-pay (yeah - considerably hefty = just shy of $90 - for a copay???).
All that just because I needed a little scrap of paper asking for one-month's worth of pills. And if they didn't actually help, I think I'd just quit cold turkey - but they do help and you're not supposed to quit cold-turkey. Especially before classes start.

But c'mon. We are STUDENTS using the STUDENT HEALTH CENTER with STUDENT INSURANCE. And this is the best you can do for us, people? Next time I'm going back to my family practice guy at the Greeley clinic 'cause I like him & he can write prescriptions, too.
Medical costs are totally kicking my ass. TOTALLY. Has anyone ever maxed out a credit card on just doctor bills and prescription costs? Not that I'm even close to that (thank goodness)...but boy-oh-boy.

In other news, the typical August weather on the Colorado front range has been swapped for October weather. It is overcast and raining (like Western Washington rain, people - not a 5 minute thunderstorm and then done), and it's only 58 degrees outside! This is coming from the sunny 105 degrees two weeks ago. Mother nature is pms-ing or menopausing or something...

Note(s) to self...

"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"
"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"

I am only responsible for myself and my own actions

If I don't take care of me, who else will? Who else CAN?

My intuition rarely steers me wrong. Now if I would only listen to it more...

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

I have never regretting helping someone in need. I have regretted NOT helping. Helping pays off. Maybe not right now, but it does. I have complete faith.

Everything works out in the end. If it doesn't work out, it's not the end.

Maybe it's not coincidence that I keep getting "lucky" enough to have the experiences I've had - to get the opportunities that I've gotten. But humility is good, too.

I am worth it. I am SO totally worth it!

Bless my family and my friends. I have the most amazing, loving support in the world. I owe it all to you. Thank you all.

It is NEVER a bad time to say "thank you." It is NEVER a bad time to say "I love you."

I promise I'm okay.

Because, though the phoenix burns in a fire of its own making, it rises again from the ashes.

And though the phoenix is a mythical being, its image has surfaced across cultures and through the centuries for a reason - if this is what people need to believe, they could do much worse, and it really is very strong symbolism. Like Mom says, "Everything works out in the end, and if it doesn't work out, it's not the end."

(p.s. - thanks, Greg - still love the design!) :)