Monday, July 30, 2007

Whoa, Nelly!

Aye, me, where did the summer go? And how do I get it back???

I cannot believe that tomorrow is the last day of July, already! Less than one month 'til classes start, and so much to do! Still have tons of work on my lit review to do. Research proposals to start formulating. Check in with Kiki to see if she needs anymore help with data entry. Classes to plan for! (yup - I didn't think I was gonna' be teaching, either, until just Sunday - now I'm teaching two sections of Mus330 in the fall, and Mus331 in the Spring. True, I did teach 330 the year before last, but only one section, and with lots of help from and colaboration with Suzie, and didn't have to worry about 331 following up in the Spring. And there are plenty of things I want to do differently, this time. Plenty to be excited about, but plenty of preparation to do, too...kind of getting a headache just thinking about it...but that'll pass once I just do it).

Still need to get my computer sent in to get fixed. Still need to schedule an appointment with the vet for Tommy. Still need to do work work. Still need to get back to riding more ponies now that my knee is better. Still need to figure out exactly what my fall schedule will be!!! (and then shop for supplies and books, accordingly ... assuming I can afford to...).

Eesh. Yup - it all boils down to "so much to do!" (ya' should see the list I have made!!!)

My personal greatest challenge = balancing the things I (feel I) need to do for others and the things I need to do for myself. Part of the problem is that I've brushed quite a bit of my own "stuff" to the side and now it's bitin' me in the arse. And still i feel kind of guilty for not doing more to help others out. Hehehe. I'm silly.

My personal greatest fear (at the moment) = FORGETTING SOMETHING!!! I'm falling back into my habit of having To Do lists everywhere, and constantly feeling the need to write things down before I forget. But it's kind of good that those tendencies are surfacing again now, 'cause that way I can deal with them now instead of trying to do so once classes are already underway.

And even though part of me feels waaaaaay guilty for going to Iowa for an entire week (!!!), part of me says it will be really, really good for me, too. As long as I get my "stuff" together before we leave on Friday, then I could have a very good, productive week. Plus, I'm sure I'll be having so much fun, I won't hardly think about the things I "should" be doing - which is perfect, because "shoulds" and "could haves" and all those terms are just judgemental and are what keep us tied up in the past or the future instead of just living in the now. And I am working at living in the now. Awww - just another reason why YOU are so good for me...and "you" know who you are... ;0)

Alright, I think I got that mini panic attack off my chest (I'd just been updating my To Do list, in case you couldn't tell). Back to work, for now.

Ohmygoodness!!! I just realized that I still haven't even started Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows, yet! Here I saved Di's birthday present this long (thanks, Di!), and I'm not even reading it yet. What kind of fan have I become =0(

Happy July --> August transition, everyone!!!


Kristen said...

awww....I know I'm good for you. ;o)

Love you tons hun! Here's to a busy august and the craziness of going back to school. *cheers*

Luke said...

Gosh I hope with all of your work you don't forget about me! Also like i've mentioned before on here, I'll be sure to let Rocky know- I think I'll print your blog off and read it to him because he has been good for me too, I just don't want to give him a big head and tell him that!

karen said...

You are both such dorks. 'Nuff said... ;0)

kiki said...

The exact same thing has been happening to me, too. I'm freaking out about school starting in less than a month and I haven't done anything all summer. But, you know what scares me the most? I'm not excited about it like I used to be. I just don't want to have to work that hard anymore, I don't want to feeel completely stressed all the time, and I don't want to feel guilty about spending time with my boyfriend when I have work to do. Sob!!!